Saturday, May 17, 2008

it was all a dream

I'm going to talk about a difficultfor blacks & hispanics that only comes up in whispers.
Incest & rape is something your grandma or other family members discuss only when they're forced to . You know , like why you're cousin looks nothing like anyone else in the family, or what aunt so & so has real wild ways. Or how come my daddy can't come around ( or male or female cousin, unckle , aunt ,family friend) It's something that tears the family apart and everyone blames someone. It's always someone you can't beleive did it & nfortunately in our culture , we fail to get the help that mentally we need . We always hear from the older side of our family to let it be and let god fix it. But what bout all the pain that needs to come out.So then that pain would be left for whomeveryou choose to share your life with.Honestly ,anybody who feels like they have to attacka child in their family is sick. You're a lower than the average rapist.Why touch someone who has your ancestry running through , your eyes , your swagger, everything. No excuse. Now lets talk about rape. While i don't condone prostitution, this is someone who is willing to indulge in your sexual appetitie to an extent. With that being said ,why do you have to take something from someone that is so precious and can not be given back.
It's not like beating someone down. Wounds can heal. But do you know how long self -esteem ,pride & trust takes to be rebuilt. You deserve to die.

Now for the victim.
You are not at fault.
But if you continue to hold on to the pain and rejection, you will continue to be a victim.
Be that last man standing , get the help needed and let somene who truly loves you elevate youo back and beyond where you are. But most important , do you and take you back.
Always remember, somewhere there is someone who loves you and will unconditionally give their all to protect and love you from inside and out.

8Th & Line Camden to Diego back to Va.

Cipha Loves you

To those in mylife , when i was smaller i couldn't protect none.
But i promise i will protect all that i can.





My People , My People ,.......MY PEOPLE

Man , Van Damn . Days like this always make me think that we'll never go forward .

Check it, between the prson I truly love , my Family & my dreams it seems like nothing wants to drop into place. But that's my issues . Acouple of weeks ago , I was standing around with some
cats that have taken some roads i've taken & some that traveled further down it than i did.
But i was pointing out to them that we're about to have a resurrgence of the golden era of nightmares soon Yeah, i'm talking about from 1986 to 1994. If you're as old as me you remember. Teens running wild with guns , people scred to come out of there house, uber crooked police, misery, destruction, dispair. Let me explain....Reganomics ushered in recession , a reduction in funds for programs ,less interaction with the working class. We were even in bed with Iran, Niccarauga, & a few other shady compadres. The direct results were high unemployment, extreme disharmony between the have's & the have nots. And for some mysterious reasons, a easily acessible form of drugs came on the scene. C.R.A.C.K....
Yeah if you were a teen , in JR. high, or even Elementary, you remeber the season of the living Baseheads.The more jobs ,opportunity left no hope for many (including a lot of my family) to join the legions of baseheads who shwed no shame in robbing family , killing , selling soul and body of theirselves & in some cases their extended family.t crossed all color lines. Well i bring it up because gas is at an all time high, unemployment is on the rise, income are not going up with the rising cost. And no one truly no one knows where to turn. Yeah you say church and god, but most need actual physical assistance and have no theorectical belief. Anyway where are we going . No, I don't feel like these are the last dys , yet...... They're coming. So the question is what until then.
Do we fix it this time instead of stumbling like we did those 8 years?

Damn .......US